Tuesday, June 21, 2011

When I Grow Up

"Train up a child in the way he should go, Even when he is old he will not depart from it." Proverbs 22:6

A few days ago my child told me "When I grow up, I want to have a big fancy pick-up truck!". I laughed and gave him the same type of answer my parents gave me when I was a child; "That sounds nice! You better do really well in school and get a good job and make lots of money to pay for that big old fancy pick-up truck!". I found myself stewing on my reponse for a while. Thankfully, the Lord gave me a re-do just a few hours later when all three of my big boys were talking about what they want to be when they grow up. If their plans work out I will be the mother of a fireman, a basketball player, and a construction worker. I told them how proud of them I would be, but what would make me even more proud is if they were doing what God wanted them to do. I told them He has a plan for their life and they first must pray and ask God what HE wants them to be when they grow up, and I let them know that I will be praying for them too. More than anything else I want them to follow God's direction and plan for their life. I was so blessed by that conversation with my boys, and I'm so excited to see the plan God has for them!

Thank you for my boys. All four of them are SO full of energy and life and I pray that they use that energy and passion to serve you. Guide and direct them, bind their hearts to yours, I want them to fall head over heels in love with you. I pray they submit their lives, plans, and futures to you, Lord. Reveal yourself to them.

As their mother, help me not to get in your way, Lord. I lay my pride down. I want them to be succesfull in YOU, not in wordly things. Give me the wisdom to train them up to love you. Help me lead my children by example, watching a mother and father that want to follow your direction and plan for our lives. Always trusting, hoping, waiting in you.
In Jesus name,

Never underestimate the power of a praying mother!

Monday, June 13, 2011

...Who Gives me Strength

"I can do all things through Christ who Gives me strength." Philippians 4:13

The point of this blog is to show how God can use my weaknesses. How he can use what I saw as a curse and use it to bring Him Glory. And to show how He can turn my faults into blessings. We can draw so close to God by using His strength to overcome our weakness.

During our Wednesday night bible study our Pastor was teaching us about Gods strength, and how as Christians we need it for Everything. Our need for his strength versus our own strength goes beyond my needing him for patients, perseverance, energy, love. We need God's strength to even admit that we need his strength. We need God's strength to have a relationship with God, to pray, to love Him the way we should. For we cannot do anything that is worth anything in our own flesh, it all must come through Him. Which explains a lot. It explains why I don't always feel like praying or reading my bible. It explains why don't always feel like waiting for His answers or His timing and why I would rather just take matters into my own hands. When the light bulb clicked that I need God's strength in the small things in order to receive God's strength for the big things, it changed the way I pray. Even if I don't 'feel' like praying, by starting my prayers out in this way it opens up for awesome communication with God.

I need your strength today. I need your strength and power to pray, put the words in my mouth Lord. I need your strength to love you the way I should love you. I need your strength to walk with you and to recognize your presence in my life. You made me to need you and I recognize that I cannot do anything for you without your strength and spirit inside me. Pour your spirit out on me today, Lord....

I hope this helps grow your prayer life the way it is helping to grow mine. It's amazing how much better everything is, even our prayers, when we let God control them!

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Too Blessed to be Stressed

I look around and often think of how blessed I am. A beautiful home, beautiful family, we all have our health, my husband works hard and has a good job, we have cars that go, clothes on our back, food in our bellies, and our ends seem to meet every month. I don't feel worthy of all the blessings God has given me, but I am oh so grateful for each of them.

But what if suddenly it was all taken away? Everything- kids, health, family, money. Would I still feel blessed? I keep thinking of Matthew chapter 5:4-3 and wondering if I would still feel blessed if it ever REALLY stormed on me?:
"Blessed are the poor in spirit, for they will have riches in heaven.
Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted."

We all pray for blessings and give praise to God when he answers prayers. But He longs to fill more than our earthly needs & desires. He wants to bless us with Him. He wants to feed our spirit. And sometime that blessing of constant intimacy, fellowship, and dependancy on God- sometimes that comes through intense pain.

Do I trust you enough? Do I know you are good even when life isn't? Do I love you enough to feel blessed even if all this 'stuff' you have given me was gone? If I had nothing to hold in my hands, would I still lift them up to you? I pray that I have a heart like that. A heart that feels blessed when the rest of the world only sees a mess. When other's might ask "Where is God in this?", I will be blessed to know that you are right in the middle of every situation. To feel your presence in the midst of loneliness, your peace in chaos, your light in darkness, and an eternity secured in your Heaven; those are the kind of blessings you wants us to want. And those blessings cannot compare to any other posession you might give us. While these gifts you have lavished on me may not always be here, your love stands. Heaven stands. These are the blessings that cannot be taken away from me, and I thank you for them. The hardest and scariest prayer I will ever pray is to offer my family to you Lord. Not that you need my permission- they are more yours than mine anyways. But, I do. I put my faith and trust in you, that no matter what our future may hold you are in control. I trust that you will do with my children, my husband, and me that which will bring you the most glory. Not what brings us the most happiness Lord, but what best glorifies you. Pour your blessings out on us.