Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Livin' on a Prayer

Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us.
Romans 8:34

God has given me a heart for mamas. Seriously, I love mamas. Most people think that having triplets I have no pity on other mother's and their stresses, but I do- I get it. Motherhood is overwhelming and stressful no matter if you have one child or 5- you just learn to grow with it, go with it, survive and thrive on this planet motherhood. I love to pray for mamas, cook meals for new mamas, and swap 'you wouldn't believe my day!' stories with other mamas. Over the past 5 years I have come to realize how much in need of encouragement we are, how we need to support one another, stop juding and criticizing and be open to everyones different styles and ways of mothering. And most importantly, we need to lift one another up in prayer. On those really defeated days, when I'm most in need of prayer, I'm always reminded that I'm not alone,I'm not the only mom in need of prayer. I wouldn't trade my defeated, overhwelming days for anything in the world because those are the days I spend the most time in prayer, both for myself and other mothers. Often I feel better just by shifting the focus off myself and praying for other moms that might need encouragement that day as well.

I've had several really stressful weeks the past few weeks, and last week I was feeling exceptionally overhwelemed. I desperately wanted prayer. And to top it off, I had that old friend-sin 'worry' nagging at the back of my mind, causing me to stress and feel anxious about something I have little control over. I had already asked several of my other 'sister friends' to pray for me, but that didn't seem like enough. I know there are several times I promise to pray for somebody and I forget, and I wanted these prayers bad, I needed to know someone was praying for me.

And then I rememered reading a post on facebook several months back and that was something along the lines of Jesus sitting at the right hand throne of God and he prays for you. That thought filled my head all day long- He prays for me!

So friend, if you're feeling desperate and in need of prayer, please reach out. But we are all human- there is only ONE person you can ask for prayer that will not fail you. Jesus will pray for you. You don't even have to know how or what to ask him to pray, he prays for you. He already knows your stress and worry ans anxiety, and he is waiting on you to lift your burden to him. He prays for you. I can't get that out of my head. I love my brothers and sisters in Christ and there is power in their prayers, but who better to have in your corner praying for you than Jesus himeslf, sitting there right beside our maker? Oh I hope that blesses you as much as it blesses me. How foolish we can be to hang on to our worries when He is up there just waiting for us to acknolwedge that He is in control. He is on our side. Cast ALL your anxiety on him because he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7.

I pray for them. I am not praying for the world, but for those you have given me, for they are yours.
John 17:9

“My prayer is not for them alone. I pray also for those who will believe in me through their message, that all of them may be one, Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me. I have given them the glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are one— I in them and you in me—so that they may be brought to complete unity. Then the world will know that you sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me.
John 17:20-23

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Find a Penny

Neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Romans 8:39

Have you ever taken a moment to just sit & really reflect on how much God loves you? It's easy to say that we grasp this concept, we've been singing "Jesus Loves Me" since we were in the church nursery, but do you really get it? Do you have a peaceful understanding deep down in your soul that no matter who you are, what you've done or what you don't do, God loves you? And when is the last time you sat and just thought about that? That the God who knows the deepest, darkest parts of your heart, your ugliest thoughts & your entire past- He is head over heels in love with you?

I've been doing a little Bible Study by Beth Moore called "Loving Well" and how we are called to love others not in our own strength, but out of the abundance of lavish, unconditional, unstoppable, overflowing of God's love that he pours on me. I love that thought; I am a princess who is lavishly, unconditionally spoiled by my father, the KING. He does not love me out of an unstable, inconstistant, ever-changing emotional love, the way our flesh loves others. He doesn't even love us to get anything in return. He loves us because that is who He is. God is love. And as a child of his who has accepted & acknowledged that rich overflowing of God's love I am to love others with that God-love that is just dripping & overflowing from me. Period. No exceptions, no excuses. God loves me because of who He is, not because of who I am. In light of that, I am called to love others not because of who they are, but because of who I am, a child of God.

It's one thing to sit and pray and talk 'at' God, but take a moment to just sit & meditate on how much you are loved. How constant, peacefully, completely,abundantly & lavishly you are loved. Go ahead, lay down while you are doing it so you really feel like you are resting in the love of your father, you know- the way a cat lies down & soaks up the sunshine. See if it doesn't make a difference in your day and in the way that you love others.

I have several friends who have this "God thing" going on. They have a certain 'sign' from God, and when they see these 'signs' or reminders, it's their own personal "I love You" or 'I'm here" from God. I thought this sounded wonderfully romantic, so I asked God to give me a 'thing' that was just for me and Him. The very next day I started finding pennies everywhere. I think I counted 5 in one day. It wasn't until I was 3 pennies into it that I realized God had given me my
'thing', and the words Find a penny pick it up, and all day long you'll feel God's love popped into my head. I have continued to find several more pennies over the days that have followed, and now my boys will bring me pennies they find and tell me "Here mom I found this, it is for you from Jesus!" What a wonderful, fun reminder that I am loved and he is always present, no matter if I 'feel' those truths or not. What an awesome thought that the God who created the universe will take time to be so personal & intimate with me.

Thank you for being more patient with me, the mess that I am, than I am with others. Help me to remember they deserve the same patience and love from me that you so extravagantly give to me. Thank you Lord, for taking the time to be personal and to answer little prayers, for being willing to remind me daily how big, how deep, how wide & how constant your love is for me, I want to get lost in that love with you, Lord. Thank you for reminding me at just the right moments in your own special way that my heart is spoken for.